Confidence is a gift. I think. I am actually at a place in my life were I realized that I am lacking and I need to do something about it. To be honest, I didn't think it was something I lacked until recently...
For me, approaching my 40th birthday (and now a bit past it) made me realize a few things about myself. Being honest with myself has been hard. I am struggling with my mental and physical health. I don't feel quite right.
I am raising three children and one of my wishes is that they are confident but how can I teach this if I don't feel that way myself. I can't decide if my lack of confidence is relatively recent or not. I think my thirties did a number on me and now I am in a bit of a slump where I just kept on keeping on. Don't get me wrong, I am where I want to be but there are just a few tweaks here and there I want to make and from this realization came the fact that I am just not confident in myself, my thoughts, my abilities and my opinions.
I compare myself to others. It isn't good... I know that. I haven't always been this way though. This is more of a recent thing. I wish I was as fit, as smart, as good at commitment, as focused etc... I look to others for confirmation in myself.
This has to stop.
So here's the beginning of my continued journey for self-acceptance and confidence. This is my turning point.
Oh and it's been a while, but I will be sharing some of my sewing creations soon!