Thursday, 5 October 2017

My Turning Point

Confidence is a gift.  I think.  I am actually at a place in my life were I realized that I am lacking and I need to do something about it.  To be honest, I didn't think it was something I lacked until recently...

For me, approaching my 40th birthday (and now a bit past it) made me realize a few things about myself.  Being honest with myself has been hard.  I am struggling with my mental and physical health.  I don't feel quite right.

I am raising three children and one of my wishes is that they are confident but how can I teach this if I don't feel that way myself.  I can't decide if my lack of confidence is relatively recent or not.  I think my thirties did a number on me and now I am in a bit of a slump where I just kept on keeping on.  Don't get me wrong, I am where I want to be but there are just a few tweaks here and there I want to make and from this realization came the fact that I am just not confident in myself, my thoughts, my abilities and my opinions.

I compare myself to others.  It isn't good... I know that.  I haven't always been this way though.  This is more of a recent thing.  I wish I was as fit, as smart, as good at commitment, as focused etc... I look to others for confirmation in myself.

This has to stop.

So here's the beginning of my continued journey for self-acceptance and confidence.  This is my turning point.

Oh and it's been a while, but I will be sharing some of my sewing creations soon!

4 comments:

  1. I know exactly where your'e coming from and often feel the same myself. I don't know what the answer is but if you find it do let me know! Take care xx

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    1. Thanks for reading...it isn't easy putting myself out there but I have missed my blog and the outlet of writing.

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  2. Good for you Deb for recognizing this in yourself and being open about it! I'd tell you I think you're awesome but you have to believe that yourself, as you know. I think we spend our 20s focused on ourselves (in university, etc) and then our 30s focused on our families, and it's easy to get in a rut or stop pushing yourself out of your comfort zone and slip backwards.

    Facebook and blogs don't help either because it's hard to not compare yourself when you see all the wonderful things other people are doing. We just have to remember that those are FB lives and that our own FB lives look extraordinarily amazing too.

    Happily, I get to give you a hug in person tomorrow!!

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    1. Thank you for being one of my cheerleaders! See you today!

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