This was where I was at earlier this year. The last few years have been tough for me sometimes without me realizing it. I admitted a few things to myself and others late last fall and started on a new journey.
It's only the end of March and I feel a change has slowly been washing over me. Sounds silly but that's how I would describe it. I am far from feeling perfectly content but I have come to the conclusion that I am a work in progress and that's okay with me. I have bad days but more good days. I have times I feel low but I now find myself understanding why and I have hope that once I tweak a few parts of my life, I can feel good again.
- Sleep: It's the cure for almost everything for me. Sometimes life throws me short nights or interrupted sleep but I cannot handle too many nights in a row of that. When I am well-rested, I feel like I can take on my life with a happy disposition.
- Limit red wine... especially before bedtime. Yup... too much of this wonderful stuff causes me to have an awful sleep and mood swings. I still indulge but try not to have too much before I go to sleep.
- Keep up with my "tracker"; I have a list of actions I would like to achieve each day. It keeps me accountable and I like seeing the boxes all filled in on the paper.
- Keep a daily gratitude journal: this keeps me grounded especially when I feel down... making sure I can come up with at least one thing I am grateful for is mood-shifting. Almost every day I can have no challenges listing numerous items but some days it can be hard. Those are the days it is the most important.
- Talking with a therapist: This was the hardest (THE HARDEST,) thing to do but might be the most rewarding on so many levels. Talking with someone who specializes in counselling can really help. I have people to talk to in my life most importantly my husband but what I needed was someone out of my life to talk to. She made me visit some tough places but most of the time I leave completely uplifted and in a good place. She is a good fit for me.
When I look back on the last few months, I don't see a lot of accomplishment in my work, home and creating BUT I gave myself permission to work on my mental health instead. Moving forward, I can see a shift is happening and I am looking forward to what lies ahead... I wasn't feeling so positive a year ago.
I want to feel a smile on my face and hear myself laugh more... onward and upward.